Third night in a row where I haven’t made it past two hours of sleep before waking up in blinding pain…

Here is what I’ve figured out so far…the pain in my mouth is fine before I go to sleep and after I wake up…so it’s something I’m doing while I’m sleeping…

I used to grind my teeth when I was younger so I can only assume that’s the key so my idea for tonight is that I just popped two Advils and now I’m going to try to sleep with my hockey mouth guard in my mouth…

If this is the last thing I ever post because I end up choking on this mouth guard that is meant for absorbing contact not helping you dream about girls in Australia with flat stomachs, I guess tell Lena Dunham that Girls is the most consistently great first year show I’ve ever seen and I’m sorry she’s going to have one less fan for season two.

Also go watch Girls already it’s INCREDIBLE.

Weighing in has been very popular around here lately…seems to go in and out of fashion and I get that…I stepped on a scale a few days ago for the first time in the better part of two months…I think I’d like to bring weekly weighing back but…

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Perhaps posting at 4am is going to become my new thing…

Actually I’m only writing this because I woke up about an hour ago with a MAJOR blinding pain in my mouth…It would seem I’m having a dental emergency but of course I don’t really have time for a dental emergency so instead I’m just trying to let the pain pass.

We’ll just nevermind about early last year when I tried to do the same thing and ended up on an operating table getting cut on in one of the worst places…perhaps I’ll just never learn…

Actually the pain is mostly gone now but it’s too late to go back to sleep and since this day, this May 28th is the day on my calendar that I circled as my return to health, return to blogging, return to life day I guess this is as good as any of a place to start.

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So where was I?

In my on going effort to compare my love life and life life to every possible thing in the sporting world I’ve stumbled upon set pieces…

A set piece of course is any offensive play in soccer that starts with a dead ball…basically your corner kicks and free kicks…I’m not 100% sure if throw ins are considered set pieces because LONG throws would but anyway let me get to my point.

I’ve noticed that, despite what any rational thinker would think, teams don’t totally designate which guys are going to take these kicks…I mean obviously if you have a guy like Beckham on your team he’s going to be the guy but for the most part it’s up to two or three guys to decide who’s going to be the man…

And how do they decide? Basically the guy who grabs the ball and fights for his position ends up being the guy…show the fire and the willingness and the kick and the chance to score is yours…

Looking back a year in this Tumblr I find that at this time in 2011 I was down to my lowest weight since 2005…this was around the time things went totally right and then totally wrong…the stuff with VG happened and things were great and then they weren’t…what changed is I stopped being that guy, stopped fighting for the ball, stopped putting in the work…

As a result I gained about 97% of that weight back this is all stuff I’ve written before…Over the last 12 months I’ve battled motivation, injuries and other stuff but never really bounced back…

However this week was different…I wrote an article for our Olympic website that turned out to be the most read article in the sites history and followed that up by running a pretty successful CFL draft chat (yes that’s a big deal)…

Yesterday I was pain free in my knee for the first time in months and I feel great again today and tonight I had a nice little talk with VG…

I did some crazy shopping today and re stocked everything in my house so I can cook and avoid the fast food…I’m going to take this thing back to January 2011 and try to run things exactly the same way (minus the running of course because I know where that ended, plus more emphasis on the weight bench and punching bag because I think those are the places I do my best work.)

It’s so cheesy to say but I’m inspired by all the stories I read of people losing weight, gaining weight, getting pissed at themselves and losing weight again because it tells me that the only important thing is to never give up…never ever give up…

On the weight loss, on the girl and on those damn set pieces….never give up

Really nothing else to call this but that…

I’m sitting here getting ready to start my MLB 12: The Show season but I can’t get what I saw last night out of my head…

Cliff Lee: IP: 10 H: 7 ER: 0 BB: 0 K: 7 TP: 102 (81) ND

He threw 10 shutout innings last night against the Giants

Now you can argue that 102 pitches is 102 pitches so the number of innings doesn’t matter but if you do that you’re probably an asshole…

He had to warm up and cool down 10 times…also he threw 21 balls so everything was over the plate and they couldn’t hit anything…He didn’t walk one guy.

I loved this post game quote:

“I was told I was done after nine, but I said I could easily pitch another inning. I tried it again after 10 but it didn’t happen.”

Anyway the 11th didn’t work out as well, Antonio Bastardo came out of the pen and I turned to the guy working beside me and said “This game is about five hitters from being over” and it turned out to be four.

So his team didn’t win and he got a no decision but Cliff Lee is a total pimp.

I am watching A Walk To Remember with the Jays game in the small picture in picture box…

I felt like I should tell someone so that when they come revoke my man card at least people know I made this choice of my own free kinda hopeless romantic will…

Alright stop looking at me now

Every once in a while you get one of these…just a normal average day where nothing extraordinary happens but you feel good about yourself from the time you get up till the time you go to bed…

Put on a shirt this morning thought it made me look skinny…for sure it made me FEEL skinny…then I went to work and had a normal workday, The Blue Jays won another extra innings game against the Indians for which I used the headline Encore Victory…I hope people get that because I like the ring to it…another extra innings game and another win: Encore Victory

Anyway got home and after a little surfing, knocked out an exercise video and some weights…

We’ll skip over the part where I sat in my basement for almost an hour because I couldn’t walk up the stairs…

It would be nice if I could string good feeling days and good workout days together but as they said in Major League 2 “We won a game yesterday, if we win one today, that’s two in a row…If we win tomorrow, that’s called a winning streak…It HAS happened before.”

I have watched a lot of baseball in the last three days…

I bought the MLB.TV package which allows you to watch every out of market (so for me every non-Blue Jays) game…I mean I love the Jays and they are the one and only team I cheer for but I also just love the game…I like at a whim being able to watch anything I want…

Like Roy Halladay absolutely mowing down the Pirates…yes it helps that he’s on my fantasy team (got him with my second pick)…also the Phillies are going to be in Toronto on my mom’s 65th birthday so I’m taking her to the game…Ricky Romero is her boy now but if Halladay pitches in that game it could be trouble…

Yesterday the Jays played a 16 inning game against the Indians it was magical…and long and man…J.P. Arencibia (Who became my new favourite player on the team after a great yoga pants twitter update) blasted a three run home run in the top of the 16th…it was fun to be yelling at my tv on opening day…

And the Nationals…they are the team I’m using for this season of MLB The Show…following my ‘09 Jays, ‘10 Cubs , ‘11 Rays seasons…I picked them because they are a good team in what is the toughest division top to bottom in the National League…Unless the Mets totally bottom out it should be the only division without a patsy team in all of baseball…

I think I’m going to use some vacation time in September and go see Wrigley Field…Chicago is one of those places I need to go see places and that’s the only ballpark I have left out of the big three to go visit…

I’ve seen some solid Saturday Night Plans posts…just bought this little gem…Hello Jose Bautista and goodbye to the need to talk to anyone else till November…Also I’m about to dive into a bowl of Mac N’ Cheese and a Coors Light so it’s popping off

It’s great to have you back…

Saturday afternoon is the second Toronto FC home game of the season and it freakin’ snowed today…I can’t imagine it’s going to be very warm down by the Lakeshore so that’s going to be a joy…it is good to have the boys in red back, even if they got poleaxed in the first game…

Being a fantastically single guy (seriously my longest relationship with a girl was nine months long…a stat that I find more incredible every year) I don’t have many great emotional girl moments…however there is one that has been rolling through my mind the last few days and honestly it was kinda making me sad and I didn’t even realize it…

When VG was here last spring when that entire thing went down we spent one evening together before the great all-day date…On that evening after we went out for dinner we went to a park and sat on a bench and talked…she kinda turned into me leaning against my shoulder and eventually put her head on my leg…Basically we just sat there talking till it got late and we had to leave…

This moment is the moment I realized how much I liked her and kinda validated the torch I had been carrying around for her since basically grade 11 (though admittedly it was a minor torch before we started talking again after that wedding a few years ago)

There isn’t anything about that night I couldn’t describe…it was perfect…

So I was down I think because it seemed more and more like it was going to be perfect AND one of a kind…

However momentum being the next day’s starter and all, a few days and a few online happenings have kinda cracked the door back open a little…just know that I’m still in this thing and still playing for a second perfect moment.

Also I can’t live and die with this everyday because it’s going to be a long time before we get to the end of this good or bad…no matter how much or how little I post about it know that I fight.

More ups…I’m off five of the next seven days (everything but Monday and Tuesday) so it’s a chance to shockingly clean my room and do laundry…I also have to start the process of getting rid of my dresser and desk which will not be making the trip to Toronto.

And do I ever need to workout…pitiful…my Olympic goal amazingly is still in sight but only because of some good eating which I really hit the wall on this week.

Oh man and my weekend is full of plans…This is the way man…this is the way